Fertility and loneliness
IVF is one of the most emotionally demanding experiences a person can go through, and most people go through it in near-total secrecy. The hormone injections, the monitoring appointments, the egg retrieval, the agonising wait for results — and then either the hope of a positive test or the grief of a failed cycle, which may be the fourth or fifth or seventh. All of this while maintaining a normal exterior, because most people in your life do not know it is happening at all.
People undergoing IVF describe a particular kind of double life. At work, at social gatherings, in ordinary conversation, everything appears normal. Underneath, you are managing a medical process that is physically painful, financially significant, and emotionally consuming. Each cycle involves hope — the possibility of what you want most — and the possibility of that hope being taken away. The grief of a failed cycle is real and largely invisible to the outside world.
The loneliness of IVF is also the loneliness of not being able to talk about it. The decision to keep it private may be the right one — IVF involves a vulnerability that is not everyone's to know — but privacy has a cost. You cannot explain why you are tired, or sad, or distracted. You cannot grieve openly when a cycle fails. The people who could support you do not know there is anything to support. And the burden of managing all of it, often with only a partner who is going through the same grief, is very large.
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