Family and loneliness
In some families, one member is assigned the role of the problem — the one who is blamed when things go wrong, whose version of events is never believed, who is spoken about differently than they are spoken to. The scapegoat role can be subtle enough to go unnamed for years, even decades. But the loneliness it produces is specific and deep: you are inside a family that does not see you accurately, and the family is often the last place you can go to talk about it.
The scapegoat's loneliness is compounded by the difficulty of being believed. If you try to explain the dynamic to people outside the family, their version of your family — the polished, functional version presented publicly — may not match yours. The family may appear warm and close to outsiders. The gaslighting can be so consistent that you begin to question your own perception. The isolation is not just social but epistemic: you are not sure your experience is real, and you have no witnesses.
Deciding whether to stay in contact, reduce contact, or leave the family entirely is one of the most difficult decisions a person can face — and it is almost impossible to make without someone to think it through with. The grief of a family that did not work, that hurt rather than protected, that will likely never acknowledge what happened — that grief is real and deserves to be held properly.
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